Just some random thoughts for ya, today. I thought I might share, since sometimes these kind of journals are relatable. I seriously wish DA had like, two journal categories, though. Sometimes I feel like I'm spamming you guys with personal stuff when all you want is art stuff! If that's the case, I'm very sorry!!
Anyway, I'll keep this short!
This morning I got up and went through my usual little routine. Get ready, check DA, check my email, check Facebook, etc., but for whatever reason decided to take a trip down memory lane. So I scrolled through the entirety of my facebook history and noticed something. I used to be SO ashamed of myself. I still am, if I'm being honest... But looking back on who I was... I LIKE that person. She was someone I would have really wanted to know. But when I WAS that person I absolutely hated
myself... So who's to say that in five years I won't look back and wish I'd been nicer to the person I am now? I have a lot of potential. I think everyone does. It's what we DO with that potential that makes us who we are... And I don't want to waste that opportunity.
WHY do we waste so much time
bashing ourselves or critiquing ourselves? There's nothing wrong with realizing your mistakes, but I think there is a LOT wrong with beating yourself up over them. I find myself getting in to these deep spiraling thought tornadoes of how I've made a mess of my life and how I'll never be able to undo everything I've done wrong... But that is NOT TRUE.
The TRUTH is that EVERYTHING I've screwed up can be fixed. It's a two way street, of course, but it's NEVER too late to apologize, to forgive, or to just let go and move on. I just have to make an EFFORT. Basically, I want to be someone I
can be proud of, and if I'm proud of myself, other people will be, too. If they're not, I don't need them! I'd much rather be surrounded by people who like me, anyway.
So I don't know if any of that makes any sense... I just wanted to throw those thoughts out there. Things at work have improved by a billion percent, but I'll talk more about that later. I love you guys! I have some errands to run, but I'll be doing some replying to stuff and art when I get back!!