Don't know if ya remember me...
It's been ABOUT a year.
Let me catch you up here really quickly and I'll be out of your hair. This is less of a "I'm back" message and more of a status update because I feel like I owe it to you.
I really miss you guys. And I really miss doing digital art. Here's the deal. I am essentially broke. I've been scraping by this year and while I'm not complaining, there is no way I'll be able to do any more art anytime soon. I can't afford to get the tools necessary for it and the job I work is mostly seasonal, so I certainly won't be making enough to really justify buying a computer and tablet and what have you. For that reason, I am officially asking you to request a refund if I owe you any art. I know it's irresponsible of me to not have the information on hand regarding who I owe what to, and I am very sorry. It's just me and my itty bitty phone for now.
Just because I have stopped doing digital art for the time being doesn't mean I've stopped art entirely. I've actually been spending this year painting a LOT, and I've even had a few shows in town. I'm hoping to potentially make some money off of that this season and maybe some day find my way back to you guys, but I can't guarantee it. Unfortunately, with everything that's gone down this year, I don't feel as attached to the LanieJ art style that I used to like so much. It just begs to be stolen because it's easy to copy, since it's mainly inspired by Disney's style to begin with. I am NOT saying anything is wrong with fan artists and disney-styled artists. I just don't feel like that's who I am anymore. And I really feel so bad saying that. I just want to be 100% honest with you all. So, over the next few months, things could go one of three ways:
One: This account, once trades and commissions have been saved by their owners, gets deactivated.
Two: All fanart hits the road and I start over.
Three: I put everything on private and come back to it later.
I have no idea what to do, but every time I think about this account I get a pit in my stomach. I feel guilty for how I left you all, I feel embarrassed because I have changed so much and this art is a part of me, for sure, but it no longer represents me, and a lot of you are mad. I understand. However, coming back to rape threats and hate mail is under no circumstances okay.
I just can't keep up. It's my own fault for digging myself in to this hole, I know. That's why I really would like to make amends and give you a refund if I can. You can contact me at firstname.lastname@example.org. Even if you just want to say hi, you're welcome to send a message.
While I may not remember what I owe off the top of my head, I will certainly recognize you once you jog my memory!
Once again, I'm sorry. This whole situation in incredibly immature on my part and I certainly hope I can make it up to you.
Even though it might not seem like it, I really love you guys, even including the people who left threats in my inbox.